My Heart.....

My heart can't take anymore of this pain, any more of this dimming light. As the fire burns out I think of all the good times and everything that made me love you. Its as simple as just the way you stood. Head high, broad shoulders, pure confidence..... Attraction at its best! What happened in between that time when I was your queen, your best friend, your companion. Now I'm reduced to not even your friend. My heart, my every emotion is wrapped in you! You and I are not more and I have to admit that my foundation is shaken and my sense of security is gone. What do I do with my spare time that was once spent with you and how do I feel the void of where you used to be. My heart, my heart, my heart is calling out your name and waiting for you to mend the pieces back together. I am in such excoriating pain and as the tears fall down my cheeks, all I have are the memories of you and the feeling of how you felt the last time we touched, we kissed, we danced, we just were.... Time seemed to stand still the day you walked out of my life and it hasn't moved since! I'm starting to feel numb, to feel nothing due to lack of emotions such as happiness and love. Secluded, cold and lonely! I can no longer remember your warmth and I can't see tomorrow. Nor the dreams and goals I once had. My heart, my heart, my heart is crying for help and my soul is dying. I'm consumed by the lost of you and forgot about me. I have forgotten how to live and to survive! Who am I and where is my sense of self. Afraid of the openness of light, I stand in darkness withdrawn from society. The agony of moving forward! So I wait and accompany misery. I wait and lose everything! I wait and there is no me! Just my heart that gave up...